Unwritten

So, this is a decision that I have toyed with off and on for, well, years now, but I think I am finally to the point in my life that I can devote myself to stand behind this decision. I am going to start living a healthier life. I'm tired of being sick and hurting all the time. I'm tired of being self-conscious about my body. I'm tired of not having any energy. If I am going to stand in front of rooms full of kids and attempt to inspire them, I want to inspire them to make healthy life choices. It's time to make a change. Today I joined Weight Watchers online, and tomorrow I am hitting up the gym for the first time. I think that now is the best time for me to start on this adventure because I know I am going to constantly be surrounded by people who will actively support me, and I am going to be spending most of my days busy instead of just hanging out around the house. Honestly, I'm kind of nervous because the last time I tried to go on a diet, I ended up not eatin...

Alright, so, I have a lot of things to say right now, but I am really exhausted. Let's hope this blog is still coherent in the morning light. Today 40 teachers were let go from the school system where I spent the majority of my pre-university years. First of all, I feel like I need to say that it really, REALLY sucks that teachers lost their jobs (we'll come back to the suckage later), but I also think that some people need to keep things in perspective. Avon's population has exploded in the last two decades. When I started school there in second grade, there were 4 elementary schools that housed K-6, 1 middle school, and 1 high school. Today (a mere 13 or so years later) there are, like, 7 or 8 elementary schools that house only K-4 and are still at max capacity, 2 intermediate schools, 2 middle schools, and 1 high school that has pretty much been undergoing expansions since it was opened. The Avon school system has done a phenomenal job keeping up with this rapid increase...

It is very lonely here. Lonely and empty and unnaturally quiet. This isn't the first time I've stayed in the Euclid house alone, but for some reason, knowing that I will never again live in this house with Kaitlyn and Cat makes being here alone very sad. In the few months I've lived here, this house has truly become a second home so much so that sometimes I couldn't decide whether I'd rather be here or home. It was a really big step for me to decide to move out of the dorms, but I am so glad I did. There is something about having a dream, fighting for your dream, and then watching as your dream comes true that changes your entire life in ways you never could have foreseen. Looking back on this last school year, I think it's very easy to see that I have changed in so many ways that I probably can't even recognize them all. The biggest way that comes to mind at the moment is the way I've handled my relationship with Ben. Anyone who has known me pre-BSU wou...