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Impromptu Rant about Boys

I'm so sick of hearing the phrase, "I wish." For once in my life, I want a guy who doesn't say, "I wish I could be there." I want a guy who will get all my texts ranting about my shitty day and get his ass in his car and drive over to see me even if it's just for 2 minutes to give me a hug and make me feel better. I'm no longer settling for, "I wish." Talk is cheap. If guys really wished that as much as they said it, they'd fucking do something about it instead of just saying that. But you know what? Most of them don't wish it. Most of them don't give a shit whether I've had a bad day or not. Most them, as a matter of fact, don't want to see a girl or even talk to her if she's had a bad day, and they just say, "I wish I could be there," to pacify us into believing that they actually care. If they did, they'd do something instead of just talking all the time. I mean, I know sometimes it's true that they can't come see me or something, and I'm not talking about every time i have a bad day because I have a lot of bad days. I just mean, once in awhile, it would be nice for a guy to care that much. But they never do. There's always some excuse as to why they can't come see me if I've had a bad day or if I'm sick or if I just really miss them and need to see them, and I'm tired of believing those excuses. It sucks that I've come to not believe the things guys say unless it's backed up with action, but I'm tired of having boys or liking boys who say things like, "I wish," and, "Soon," and, "It's complicated." I mean, yes, I like to hear that a guy loves me or that he thinks I'm beautiful, but it doesn't mean anything if he can't do things to make me feel that way, right?

Someday, I'm gonna find the guy who's perfect for me. All I know right now is that I'm over the boys here, and I'm ready to move on and find new ones.

8 days until I leave for school.

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