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A New Beginning

The past few weeks, I've had a lot of time to myself. In that time I've been doing a lot of nothing, and a lot of reading Harry Potter, but I've also been doing a lot of thinking. It's given me a lot of time to examine myself and my life so far, and I've made a decision. Instead of leaving for college viewing it as I did last year, as an end... an end to high school, to summer, to great friendships, I'm going to view it as a beginning. This is my chance to start clean, a fresh slate. It's like Kristin's mom was saying to me last night about Grant leaving for the academy; it's a chance to downplay all those things you didn't like about yourself and to focus on the things about yourself that you value most. I've also decided that I'm going to work really hard at school this year. I'm going to pay attention in classes and take good notes and not wait until the last minute to do homework. I'm also going to start taking better care of myself... eating better and exercising and stuff. I'm not going to worry about everything so much or let it get to me. I'm going to be open to meeting as many new people as possible and making a lot of new friends. That's the person I want to be.

And now for the ever-present lists:

Things I Need to Do:
  1. Teach Mom how to use iTunes
  2. Find someone to run the HCT Fanpage
  3. Disassemble my storage tower
  4. Go to the eye doctor
  5. Shop for new clothes & the rest of my college stuff
  6. Talk to Nicole about dorm stuff
  7. Propose theater camp to Board
  8. Pack
  9. Reorganize music binder
  10. Get my oil changed
  11. Send in parking permit request form
  12. Fix my bed
  13. Get a haircut

Things I Want to Do:
  1. See Harry Potter again
  2. Get my tattoo
  3. Update my digital picture frame
  4. Get Starbucks with Tim and Lauren
  5. Get sushi with Kristin
  6. Eat at Pizza King with Shelby
  7. Go see Kelly Clarkson
  8. Get "normal" people music
  9. Get a pedicure with my mom for our birthdays
  10. Plan mom's 50th birthday party

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