So, I logged on to my Facebook today, and I went to my profile to see what someone had posted on my wall, and I noticed that my boyfriend's name is no longer listed as the person I'm in a relationship with. I went to his page, of course, and noticed he has hidden his relationship status. It's Thanksgiving Break, and he is home with his family for the first time in months, and I told him I wouldn't bother him, but of course I suck at such things. So, I've texted him a few times a day, which, to be entirely honest, I don't think is excessive. Now, the other night when I was on pain killers and texted him groggily a lot of times in a row, that was probably excessive, I admit. So, after I saw that he had removed his relationship status, I immediately started to panic that he was going to break up with me...
And now I'm writing this blog post to essentially tell myself that that is something entirely stupid to be panicking about. For one, why does it matter? Why does your Facebook relationship status mean so freaking much? I say that, and yet whenever I start dating someone, I want it reflected in their relationship status... probably because I have this fear of them choosing someone else over me. But it is so dumb! It adds so much stress and so much pressure to the beginning of a relationship.
Things have not been easy with my boyfriend and I since we started dating. We are great for each other, but frankly the timing has been terrible for starting a relationship. From the beginning, we were facing life challenges and trying to get through them together instead of enjoying the usual easy-going, free-fall romantic swirl there's supposed to be. We have both had to learn a lot and adjust to each other. He is... really different than anyone I've ever dated, and I think that is a good thing. He doesn't put up with my crap, and he is honest with me, and he can tell when I really need something and when I just think I need something. He surprises me over and over with these little signs of his affection, which mean so much more to me than the ones I get when I'm fishing for them.
If he feels that way about me, why does my Facebook relationship status matter?
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