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Just... wow...

Sometimes, it really amazes me the things that people will say on Facebook. Why would a husband call his wife a bitch at all, let alone on Facebook for the whole entire world (pretty much) to read? I guess that's what happens when people get pregnant before they're ready and think that they have to get married just because she got pregnant even though they clearly aren't old enough to be married OR having a child. I mean, I always talk about how I want to get married, but I also know that no matter how much I want to get married, I'm not ready to. I love being in relationships. I love that security and the companionship and... other things, but to get married and start thinking about having a family? Like seriously planning those things? No way am I ready for that! I mean, don't get me wrong, some people get married young and it works out great and they're happy for the rest of their lives (or at least for a really long time), but most people need more time to grow up... actually it's more like they just need more time to be immature and have fun.

I just wish that more people would take the time to get to know themselves better. Just because you know everything you could possibly know about the person you want to marry, that doesn't mean you're ready. You have to know who you are, as an individual, apart from your boyfriend or girlfriend. You have to know what you want, need, where you want to go, and how you have to get there. I think that's the part that most girls forget. They love their boyfriends sooo much and know everything about them, but they get so involved with some guy that they forget who THEY are other than "so-and-so's girlfriend." I'm sure the same thing happens with boys, too.

I don't know, I know I'm still really immature about a lot of things, especially in relationships. I know I'm really needy and clingy and that I expect a lot (probably too much) from my boyfriend (when I have one), but there are some things I know for sure. Like, I know that when I find the guy I want to marry, it will feel completely different than the way I felt about any other guy. I know that love does exist, and that it is the most important thing, not just in relationships, but in life in general. I know I'm not going to ever give up who I am to marry some guy. If he loves me like he should, he shouldn't want me to change.

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